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Valentines Day at Home

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 Normally I don’t get to have valentine’s evening with Madam, normally that occasion is an event on Sir’s calendar.  It’s one of the dates in the year that he has specified as being one of his.

The lock down period sort of changed that a little bit, where we ended up with the 3 of us having valentines evening together – which was very nice and fun.

But this year, with it being on a Tuesday it didn’t land neatly to fit into the schedules.  So Sir laid on a romantic evening over at his house on Saturday night for Madam.  With everyone having been out with Mistress Carol and kerri for a meal the previous weekend it was felt that it would be too much to have another night out so soon.

The result was that Sir came over on Friday evening and had the night here, I was in my cuckold maid role for the evening and served both Madam and Sir before being dismissed from Madam’s room at about midnight.

Saturday afternoon Sir went home to prepare everything for the evening at his house, and to get the cooking done – he is quite a good cook- and I was given orders to deliver my wife to his home at 7pm, which was duly complied with at the allotted time.

From all accounts they had a lovely evening.

I used some of my free time on Saturday to have a call and chat with Kerri to see how she was doing and also how Mistress Carol was getting on. Both are in better form and kerri has now had a firm job offer so will be starting that in Early April.  That change has made her sound a lot better and happier.

On the Sunday the plan was to go and visit a Garden centre as I wanted to get some daffodils plants and bulbs for the front garden to replace the ones that I think one of the squirrels has taken – Yes I know, just how Rock and Roll do you want.  Sir and Madam met me at the garden Centre and we had lunch together – It’s not all kink you know, there is some vanilla stuff in our life.  

There are times when I sit in places like that and look round at everyone else and wonder who else in here is in chastity? who else amongst the men is wearing wearing stockings and lingerie under their street clothes?  Next time you are out and you have a moment, just have a look around and give it a thought?

The rest of Sunday was spent at home, I was back in Maid mode looking after Madam and Sir for the afternoon and evening.  Sir went home about 9pm that night.

Madam spoke to me once Sir had gone and let me know that her plan was to have valentines night with me and that I should prepare something for us to have at home.  So I put some thought to it.

On Tuesday morning I was up and made Madam’s breakfast for her and took the card I had for her and placed it on the tray along with the small present that I had got her.   (we tend not to give big or fancy gifts at valentines, it tends to be something like a pair of knickers or stockings – there has been the occasional exception in the past where I have got Madam some matching lingerie as she was going away for a weekend and I wanted her to feel special.)  On this occasion I had got her a pair of lace top stockings.

(Just so you are aware I had also sent a valentine’s card and a present of some black satin knickers to kerri.)

  Madam was very pleased with her card and gift and gave me a card and a small packet.  My valentine’s card was a “Happy Valentine’s day to my Wonderful Wife” and was addressed to billie.  My present was also a pair of stockings.  Madam told me to join her in the bed (just kick off your heels) and to cuddle in next to her. while she had her tea and toast.

Madam explained that for this evening she wanted me to be in blouse and skirt when she got home and to have my Pink PJs up in her room for later.

Once Madam went to work I cracked on with making the bed and getting the bathroom squared away, nothing too drastic as I had done a full clean the previous day.  The rest of the day was with me working from the office dealing with a project for a rather difficult client (and I’m being kind to the client as they are particularly difficult!).

The evening meal would be a small buffet of party finger food (we had a number of packs of things in the freezer from when we were expecting more people for Christmas and new year, I also had some profiteroles defrosting as I know that Madam is particularly fond of them).  With a bottle of wine in the fridge chilling things were all set.

Madam arrived home at her usual time and I had her bath ready for her, while she had a soak I laid out our evening buffet ready for when she was finished.  I could hear her upstairs getting dressed  as I laid out the last of the food and went and opened the bottle of wine for her.  I poured her a glass when I heard her start to come down the stairs and I waited with the glass on a small tray for her to come into the living room.

when she entered the living room, I bobbed a short curtsy and said “happy valentine’s Madam” and offered her the glass.  I got a look from her and thought that I had messed up and then she smiled at me, “It’s a night off for the maid, go get a glass and join your wife, Dear.”

I came back with a glass and Alice poured me a glass of wine and gave me a full and very passionate kiss and then asked “will you be my Valentine?”

the simple answer from me was “Always!”. With that we kissed again.  

It may well be the extended periods in chastity, or may be just an age thing (I’m not a pup any more -haven’t been for a long time!) but it is moments of intimacy that really do get me turned on, I really enjoy and get a lot from kissing, hugging and cuddling my wonderful wife.  That does not detract from being fully sexually intimate with her, in all forms, but I am now more aware of the parts of the relationship that feed my emotional needs.

For the next hour and a bit we basically grazed on the food, chatted and cuddled with each other.  once we finished eating we were more like a pair of frustrated first daters, there was lots of roving hands, going underskirts and rubbing fronts of knickers while we were lying on the couch necking with each other.  Looking back at it now, after a few days of reflection, it felt like the time we were almost caught by Alice’s mother making out on her couch when I was courting her many years ago!

I clearly had got my Madam a bit worked up as she called a halt to the activities and ordered me to ‘get my arse up to her room’ and get dressed ready for her.  I scuttled off in my heels to the bedroom and quickly removed my blouse, skirt and stockings.  I had preempted things by having my pink bra, suspenders and knickers on, so it was a case of just putting on the pink stockings, satin french knickers and cami and then putting on the satin PJs over the top.  I finished it off by adding my red heels.  I was making a fair assumption that we were not going to be going to sleep just yet.

photo taken on Thursday evening for another photo session

Alice came into the room having already taken her blouse and skirt off down in the living room and was in a black bra, knickers, suspenders and stockings. As she came into the room she undid her bra and went to her drawers and got a satin chemise and put that on, with it coming to mid thigh.

The two of us were now very much dressed in slippery satin, Alice in black and me in pink. We got onto the bed and continued on from where we had been down stairs, just with more room.  The risk of falling off on to the floor was significantly less on the double bed than it had been when we were on the couch.

I don’t know if it was by habit or if by gentle direction but once Alice was starting to get worked up with all of our kissing and roving hands, I found my self moving down her body.  I could see her nipples pushing against the satin so I started to lick then through the material.  As I kissed and licked one, I would gently brush the material over the other with one of my hands.  Feeling them get hard, taking my time on them.  There was no rushing this evening, plenty of time to make sure that my wife was slowly building up her arousal.

I slowly worked my way down to between her legs and slowly rubbed the satin that was covering her legs and stockings.  Regular readers will know that stockings are my kryptonite, so feeling them and rubbing my wife’s nylon covered legs was making my tight caged confinement even tighter and more uncomfortable – but in a really good way.  (last statement will seem really odd, unless you have spent an extended period in chastity and or get turned on by being teased and confined, it’s difficult to explain but having chatted with other chastity wearers they have similar feelings – Yes seems odd but it just works, trust me on this!) 

From stroking her legs I pushed the chemise up and then started to kiss the tops of her stockings and her thighs, while doing this I eased her panties down so that I could then kiss and lick my way up to her lovely sex.  I love giving Alice, my Mistress and wife, oral pleasure, to slowly work my tongue around her pussy is divine and to work her towards an orgasm is a fantastic feeling, especially as you listen to the changes in her breathing, the changes in her body and if she has her hands on my head to feel the pressure applied and released and then reapplied to push my face into her pussy, absolutely delightful! To worship her and bring her to orgasm…well I’m a very lucky submissive.

Madam released me from her thighs once she had calmed down, I move up to cuddle her and to hold her as she got her breath back. 

She told me to take my PJ bottoms and the knickers off and to get her strap on.  I duly complied.  I was told to come back onto the bed and to lie on my side facing the wardrobe with the Mirrors on the door.  Madam adjusted the Strap on and once she was happy she applied some lube to my sissy hole and also to the shaft of the strap on.

what was under the PJ jacket and trousers

I was told to get comfortable and adjust the pillows, Madam did the same and then wriggled in behind me and eased the dildo into me.  Everything was very slow and comfortable, nice and gentle.  Once she was fully in me she started to kiss my neck and rub her hand over my stocking covered legs and the satin of the PJ jacket.

I was told to keep watching the mirror, as she very gently fucked me. She had one hand free to wander across me and the other supported her. The one place that her hand never went was anywhere near my caged clit. 

All through this Alice was whispering into my ear, telling me how much she loved me, how special I was.  She made it clear that if I started to feel that I was going to cum (dripping was fine but no assgasm!) then I must tell her.  Twice during the evening I almost reached an orgasm as she fucked me and whispered love  and dirty talk into my ear.  This was one of the most erotic and frustrating edging sessions I’ve ever endured, but I would do it again! (I haven’t been milked or allowed to use my dildos for nearly 6 weeks now so this fucking/ love making was very frustrating – I’m normally milked every 2 weeks if I haven’t cum from being fucked). Each time I told her that I was about to cum, she would slow to a stop, focus on kissing me, bite my ear, rub my legs, enough to keep me aroused but enough to allow the feelings inside to subside and then she would start again very slowly. 

The pace was very pedestrian, and we were coupled like that for just over an hour.  The thing that made us stop was actually that Alice’s other arm was starting to go dead and becoming uncomfortable 😆😆. Alice withdrew from me and I rolled onto my back while she straddled me and I watched her trying not to chuckle as she worked feeling back into her arm!  I sat up and held her close and kissed her.  

That had been a very special valentine’s fucking.  While I was incredibly frustrated it was totally fantastic, I’m not sure how to better explain it.

We kissed and cuddled for a bit and then I helped to take the strap on off her and we got into the bed and spent the night cuddled together.

In the morning I woke at my usual time and went to sneak out of the bed so that I could get dressed and prepare Madam’s breakfast.  Alice caught my hand and told me – her husband – to get back into the bed and keep her warm until her alarm went off, it would appear that the maid was getting a late start.  When the alarm went off we were both up and Alice told me to join her in the shower.  As much as we would have loved to have spent longer in the shower together, Alice had to go to work so when she got out the shower I quickly dried myself, wrapped a towel around myself and went down to the kitchen to make some coffee for her and put it in a travel mug for her to drink on the way to work.

I met her at the bottom of the stairs, with just the towel on and handed her the mug.  she put on her jacket and then gave me a very passionate french kiss. Just as she went to leave she pulled at my towel, pulling it off me and stepped out the door.  Her leaving comment as I stood naked in the door  was “Make sure to stay there to wave me off Dear!” She then through the towel out onto the grass on the other side of her car.  

So I stood naked at the open door of our house waving Madam off to work, as she drove out passed the gate and as she waited to turn into the road as a couple of cars came passed.  I kept waving until she pulled into the road and disappeared down the lane.  I have no idea if any of the passing cars saw a naked bloke waving his wife off to work that morning or a naked person wandering out in the front garden to collect a discarded bath towel!

I worship my Madam Alice

I started this post by saying that I don’t normally have valentine’s day/ evening with Alice or Madam, well I’ll be honest this valentine’s day made up for it. I think I spent the rest of the day with quite a spring in my step.

billie 💋💋💋   

A Valentines Evening with Madam

Posted on by sissie billie

 Dear all,

this will be a rather short post for this evening, but is just the tease for a more detailed post in a day or so.

Sir took Madam for a valentine’s night out on Saturday and I have been allowed to have a Valentines evening with Madam. It’s been very good so far and hopefully more to come.

Please note – That suspenders and stockings are regular everyday wear for both Madam and I.

billie xxx

A Good but Busy Weekend.

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Last week Madam put up a post about the fact that we had to reschedule a get together weekend with Mistress Carol and kerri, the change of dates were an unfortunate circumstance due to work commitments and trying to de-conflict weekends.

Alice had a chat with Carol on the Sunday night and it was really obvious that she was very down and not happy.  When we dug into it it was clear that this was all part of a bigger problem.

Lock down was pretty hard on Carol.  Kerri was actually going into work for the majority of it and Carol was at home, but the isolation hit her hard. Especially when you consider that she had previously had a busy social life, as well as helping out a few Dominant Friends with their sessions.  So going from a full calendar with trips out and visitors to your home to nothing appears to have been quite a shock for her.

While during Lock down we decided that we could create a “social bubble” with the three of us (Alice, John and myself), it didn’t work that way for Carol.  Her long term B/friend couldn’t do that with Carol and kerri due to other commitments to his elderly family members.

Having spoken to kerri it appears that the end of lock downs found that this supremely confident former Pro Domme had lost her confidence, when the social events and visits didn’t immediately restart it just added to the issue.  As kerri put it, by the time she could see it, it was well entrenched.

So the blog post last week was very much for a specific reader – Carol – it was a marker to let her know that even with the changes we were still going to meet up.  Well it sort of worked, but kerri called to say that Carol had a bit of a “moment”. The result was that Alice called her on Thursday and made arrangements to go to her on Friday and stay with her on Friday Night.

Myself and John made arrangements to host her up in the Midlands.  A restaurant was booked for Saturday night and she would stay with us until Wednesday, when I would take her home in the morning.

So Alice had a good night on Friday with Carol, a bit of wine was consumed and I suspect that kerri put them to bed when they were both a bit drunk (Yes the same bed).  He left instructions that they were not to travel north until after 1pm on the Saturday!  

They arrived with us here at home after 3pm and I’ll be honest in that myself and John probably fussed around her a bit too much to make her feel welcome in the house.  She looked tired, how much that was due to the previous nights wine or just the way she had been feeling.

We settled her in and aimed to head out to the restaurant at about 7pm, I would be dressed as Mick (with billie underneath) and I would be the designated driver for the evening.  Just as we were about to leave I got a phone call and it was from kerri, asking if she could come up and join us for the night.  This was a real surprise and I probably said yes a bit too quick.  I told her to head for the house and to park up and I would come and collect her and take her to the pub to meet with everyone.

I will be honest I was expecting her to arrive as Kevin, but the reality was that when I turned up just after 9pm to collect him/her, she was completely enfemme and looking fantastic.

Note – Kerri has been a TV since her teens and knows what looks and clothes she can get away with when in public, she passes easily in public.

So when we got back to the pub/ restaurant I rolled in with my girlfriend on my arm with her looking very nice in dress, heels and stockings.  Kerri took a look at Carol and whispered to me that she looked a lot better and that it was good to see her laughing and smiling again.  We stayed at the pub until last orders, everyone was really enjoying themselves, Carol especially.  I was having a whale of a time as kerri had necked a couple of gins in short order and was being none to subtle about groping me and kissing me – which was very welcome and nice, I was also getting my suspender straps “twanged” by her roving hands.  I get the feeling that kerri needed the opportunity to let off steam as well.

When we got home we pretty much all went to our beds.  Alice and John took Carol up to Madam’s room and I took kerri to my room (the maids room).  We were both still caged and it didn’t matter, there is still a lot that you can do when you are caged

On the sunday morning I slipped out of bed and left a sleeping kerri, I went into my normal routine of making tea and coffee to take up to Madam, I decided not to go full maid but went up in my Chemise, stockings and heels.
I listened at the door but couldn’t hear anything so I just knocked gently and went in.  John saw me and put his finger to his lips to keep me quiet.  In the bed was a sleeping Carol in the middle snuggled into Alice and with John spooning her.  Both John and Alice had there arms around Carol, it was a really nice image and I know how it feels having been in that position a few times myself, it a very safe position to be in – if you catch my drift.
I put the tray on the dresser and beat a hasty and quiet retreat and left them to it, it appeared that it was going to be a slow morning.  I decided “Fuck it” and went back to my room and slipped back into bed to cuddle back into kerri.
The house came to life about 10am and John took charge of the kitchen with doing the cooking of a full breakfast for everyone.  In fact he took charge of cooking for the whole day and the Maid was give the day off due to the visitors – however habits are well ingrained and John had two helpers in the kitchen, myself and kerri.
In the grand scheme of things, there was no kink on the sunday, except having 2 husbands wandering around in female clothing helping my Wife’s boyfriend in the kitchen…..well that is a bit vanilla for us.  
Kerri was due in work at 9am on monday and asked Carol and Alice if she could stay for the Sunday and leave early on Monday to travel back home.  Both agreed and I ended up with another evening of company in my room.  For that I was more than happy to be awake at 5am to help kerri get up, a bit of breakfast and then see her on her way with a very fond kiss.
Carol stayed with us for the next 2 days.  John had gone home on Monday Morning and Alice had arranged to work from home for the 2 days so that she could be in the house with her.  while I did my domestic chores in the morning I did notice that on several occasions it was under the watchful eye of Carol – Mistress Carol was coming back and there was the occasional comment from her about the standard of my work, while they were cutting, it did make me smile as it indicated that she was getting back to normal.      

I spent the afternoon working from the dining room table, rather than the office.  This allowed Alice and myself to keep Carol company and I kept them both supplied with Tea and biscuits on a regular basis.
I drove Carol back home on Wednesday morning and she was a far better state, almost back to the Carol that we love.  Kerri hadn’t been sitting around idle either. there was a Card and some flowers at the house for her and a note saying that one of Carol’s friends from “work” would be popping around in the afternoon for Tea and a chat.  Kerri had got some cakes in for the 2 of them.  I made sure that Carol was all fine and then left, I know the Lady in question that would be visiting and thought it best that I left before she arrived – she knows how to use a cane and I didn’t want to experience that again! 
Alice has phoned her tonight and she is in good spirits.  It appears that kerri has been rounding up their old friends and is starting to rebuild her social diary. It’s going to take time but it looked like she enjoyed her weekend with us and it was good to see that confidence starting to come back.
I’ll finish with this.  If you have friends that you haven’t seen for a while, especially if you have got into the habit of not socialising as much since the pandemic then give them a call, have a chat or go and see them.  You don’t need to go to the pub or do anything fancy, just do a check that they are alright.
If it is the other way round, and you are lonely then reach out, let people know that you are lonely and you’d like some company or a chat.
To everyone – look after yourself and look after your friends!
billie ❤❤❤  
 

 

Difficulties with site access

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 Just prior to the weekend Alice tried to view a couple of blogs that she follows, both are Adult Content sites on blogger/blogspot.  

What she found was once she got to the “Sensitive Content” screen and clicked accept, she was blocked from seeing the blog.  It basically stated that she needed to verify her age.  Having tried all of the other blogs she found that it was the same.

At the same time we had noticed that SaraE, had not commented on our last 2 blog posts, which was a little unusual as she and Poppet are are regular commentators.

On Saturday I received an Email from Sara explaining that she could no longer see any blogger or blogspot sites, she doesn’t have a Gmail account so is not able to log in .

Having checked with a couple of other friends they also confirmed that they could not access our site or any other blogger sites – unless they logged in with a gmail account.

It now appears that blogger and blogspot have become a closed community.

Is this an issue? – well yes.  previously I would pick up a lot of views of the blog post from people coming from either twitter or tumblr, and it is clear to see that there is a significant drop in viewing traffic on the site.

having spoken with Poppet, she has also noticed a drop in viewing traffic.

Considering we have been slowly rebuilding the blog over the last 6 months this is a bit of a kick.

Here is the real oddity, Alice is a co-author on this blog, she can create and publish posts, having recently set it up and being quite pleased that she could that and also respond to comments without accessing my account.  But now we have the situation that she can create a post, publish it but then is not able to see the post on the blog because she is blocked.

I’d be interested to know if anyone else is having similar problems?

Due to past experiences with blogs being “nuked” we are being just a little bit careful, so backing things up and downloading content.  Hopefully this is just a glitch but I had hoped that blogging would be open for everyone to find, view and comment, not just those that “choose to join the club”. 

Any thoughts or insights?

billie xxx

Saragirls’ return

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Folks,

A very short post, but an important one for those of us that followed Saragirls Sissy Confessions blog prior to it being “Nuked”.

Well she is back and at the link below.

https://saragirlsissy.blogspot.com/

Her first post is up on the site, please pass the word out to those that you know that used to follow her.  

Please give her time to get things settled and sorted on the site to the way that she wants it, but in the mean time go and read her post.

I have also put a link on the side of my blog, so either use the link in this post or from the side bar.

billie xxx

You are what you wear

Posted on by sissie billie

The last 2 weeks have been busy on the work front for both Madam and myself, we’ve both had trips away and it has meant that we have spent a few days where our paths have only crossed briefly.  So this post is quite appropriate.

For me there are quite a lot  of times when I have to go out into the vanilla world to do real life tasks or for work. When I do, I need to make sure that I’m dressed the part and appropriate. But there is always the need to meet Madam’s requirements of our FLR and marriage.

For example a normal Friday morning is when I take a trip out to get the weekly shop. To the wider world I’m a bloke wandering about the supermarket with a trolley and a hand written grocery list. what most don’t see is under the Rugby Shirt, jeans and fleece Jacket is the Bra, panties and suspender belt holding up the stockings. Come the summer things normally change to replacing the bra for a cami top.

why bother? why not just put on your jeans and shirt and go shopping?

Well because Madam wants me to always have female underwear on, to always have some form of hosiery on my legs.  During the winter these can be opaques, or if they are lighter deniers then I will have opaque knee highs on as well.

I own very few male dress socks now, most have been replaced with 60 denier knee highs.  The same goes with my male underpants, there are a couple of pairs put to one side in a drawer with my male socks.  Most of my male socks are thick socks for when I have to wear site boots, wellies or if I’m going to do some serious walks (which I occasionally do as a way of getting some exercise without annoying my knee too much).

My day to day knickers are normally from Marks & Spencer and will often be a multi pack of Full Briefs or Brazilian cut briefs, and normally nylon or modal material.  That helps to keep my fancy pants for specific jobs at home when fully in billie mode.

As for stockings I continue to use Charnos 24/7 15 denier stockings, they are a plain top and come in a 2 pack.  They are a good everyday wearing item.  That gets matched up with one of my suspender belts.

when it comes to vanilla work wear, I’m at the stage now where I tend to wear Jacket and trousers.  Often it will be a tweed jacket but the trousers will be a suitable type that would match – tweed, chinos, jean cut (but not blue denim – I feel too old for that) and I also have got in to the habit of wearing a waist coat.  The idea is to try and look smart for the meetings without being too formal and stiff (but I do like Traditional and Madam does like her husband in tweed as well as lingerie).  I also try and use coloured or checked shirts.

This whole set up works really well with wearing my lingerie underneath.  The coloured shirts and waist coats allow me to wear a bra, even when  take my jacket off.  The trousers are thick enough to allow the stockings and suspenders to be worn and the suspender clips are not completely noticeable (you’d see them if you went looking for them) and the leg length, even if they rise up when I sit in a low chair is covered by the use of the knee highs and the way they look like thin dress socks.

 The only sort of variation on this is when we head to see Madam’s family, this normally means that I will switch to either tights or hold ups as the risk of being hugged tightly by a family member (Ellie!) is quite high, so no suspender belt or bra.

The last thing to bear in mind is what to wear to hide your chastity as well as comfort, The cut and style of the trousers does have a impact and as I found to my cost with one cage that having trousers that are too close fitting or of a material that is to stiff or unyielding can be painful – I had a CB-6000 cage split on me when we were driving and I had on a pair of jeans, and that I can assure people is bloody painful.  when I was wearing slightly larger cages I tended to go a size up in waist size of the trousers this tended to give more space in the bum and the groin area.  Its more about the sitting down rather than the standing.  

With the smaller metal and resin cages I can get away with my normal size trousers.  A word of advice – Have shirts of a good length (front and back) and wear a belt with your trousers, unless you want to expose the tops of your knickers, suspender belt or tights to the world.  OK I accept sometimes that risk of exposure is the risk that some people want/ crave. For me it is a case of being discrete about my undergarments when in male mode.

It has been interesting chatting with other submissives about what they would and do wear and there are similar variations for what they wear for public and professional/ working life.  

Some of it relates to how public you are with your home life, how comfortable with being seen as a submissive or sissy.

For some it is just a case of just wearing panties is enough to either give thrill or for their partners to have control over them by forbidding them to wear anything other than women’s knickers.

There are 2 particular examples from my working life that I remember.  One chap that I worked with always wore silk and satin french knickers and was very open about it saying that he found them very comfortable and “felt great”.  There was no submissive or sissy aspects, just someone with a liking of silk/ satin underwear and at the time there probably wasn’t a lot of male boxers in that material, added to which he wasn’t afraid to show people if they asked or if he’d was out on the piss.

The other example was a slightly different reason, a bloke that I had worked with on projects for a number of years and had a reputation for sleeping around – which had cost him his first marriage – was required by his second wife to always wear her knickers from the previous day as well as have his toe nails painted with bright red nail polish.  This was her way of reducing the likely hood of  him straying.  I would think if that was today, my fellow Site manager would have been placed in a chastity cage by his wife!

Having spoken with SaraE on this topic is about wearing women’s knickers for her, as she puts it any type from Granny Panties to Thongs are what she likes.

Kerri, tends to be Enfemme most of the time when not at work – She is a TV not TS  – but for work she needs to be a little bit more conservative with the way she dresses.  Jacket shirt and tie are a requirements, so she says that her rebellious streak has her wearing Cami tops, suspender belt, stockings and panties.  while her shirt tends to be a woman’s shirt (hard to notice when your tie covers the buttons) and she removes all of her earrings apart form a set of plain stud earnings. 

A TS friend that I have and chat to regularly works on trying to have an androgynous style of dressing, she works in a sector that would be very open and welcoming to her turning up to work fully enfemme but as she puts it, that just wouldn’t work with her personal life, but she feels that by selecting a mix or styles of clothing she can feel very femme without attracting too much attention to herself.  In her case I have seen her being able to change her look just be altering the way she does her hair and with a little bit of make up (and I do mean just a little bit.) and occasionally by changing an item or colour of clothing, she can switch between Male, Androgynous and Female quickly and easily.

I had a good chat with Poppet over this and it very interesting to understand what we wear and what we are open or shut about doing and wearing.  The differences for Private, social, public and Professional can be completely different and for all of us what we are wearing at that particular time or role can change the way we behave or present our selves to our variety of audiences. If you have been to Poppets Blog (and I strongly recommend that you do – Link in the side bar) you will know what a shameless exhibitionist slut she is (❤❤💋💋 all said with love!), and with confidence (and she has that in shovel loads) you can carry that off in public – while we Brits often get accused of being prudes we are really quite taken with Eccentric behaviour and having a confidence can carry things through and it’s surprising what you can get away with.  Also when you are in the face of the public- either at work or play, if you’re just getting on with “stuff” most folks with either ignore it or “tut, it just the way he is!”

So for all the submissives sissies out there  – Wear what you are comfortable wearing, in a way that works for your relationship, your life and your work.  And just remember we are what we wear.

The Maid’s Panties

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 As requested by Sara,

A short post on some of the types of panties that get worn with my maids uniforms, principally the French and the cuckold maid uniform.  This is not some definitive list of the different types of panties that must be worn with maids outfits, only what I have and use specifically with my maids uniforms.

First off is my routine maids knickers/ panties.  These are all satin with white lace around the legs and the waist band.  The lace is soft and not too much.  these are very comfortable to wear and the Satin is very kind when wearing chastity cages, particularly if your foreskin pokes out.

They hug the bum really well and allow the suspenders to be shown. 

The next ones look very similar, as an all satin panty with white lace at the leg openings, however these ones have a Ruched Back to them, that is when the rear of panties are gathered in to the centre of the back and they really hug your arse, following the crack of your bum.

These don’t have lace on the waist band, just on the leg opening.  The seamstress who made these had the Ruched Back as an option on most of her panties that she made.  If you are buying from a Ebay seller that makes their own outfits then give them a call/email prior to ordering to see if they can customise the items for you.

These are very similar to my routine knickers, very comfortable and supportive of the cage.  The lace at the legs isn’t scratchy so pretty good.

With the rear view you can see how the ruching pulls the satin onto the curve of the bum and the centre seem is snug in on my crack of the arse.  These are really comfortable and I don’t feel the need to try and pull them out of my bum.

Another view of the front.

The next pair are again a satin pair of panties this time with more white lace/organza edging.  A bit more fancy, but with the added feature of being fully open crotch – front to back.

All of the openings are elasticated, the satin has a nice feel to it as well – but there is no support as I’m fully exposed. 

These tend to be worn with my short Maids uniform (my cuckold uniform) so that Sir can see that I am caged.

These don’t have lace on the crotch opening, you can get them like that and I have had a pair in the past but a point to note, unless the lace or organza is soft then it can be rough around where it meets your cage, Also Sir wasn’t keen on the lace edge of the crotch opening, as he put it ” very nice to look at but a bit uncomfortable when fucking your arse! take them off!” -just a practical thing to note, so that why this pair doesn’t have lace at the crotch.

The next set is a must for all sissy maids, the ruffled panties!  These can come in a whole variety to types from satin with fully covered in ruffles or just the bum or as these ones they are a sheer black nylon with ruffles front and back.
Madam wanted these so that she could see my cage as I worked about her.  These seem to be a particular favourite of hers when I bring her breakfast in the morning.

As you can see they are quite high waisted, but I think that is so that each layer of the ruffles can be kept separate, you do get some where the ruffling does overlap a lot, if that is your thing then go for it!

The nylon on these is quite soft and doesn’t cause a problem with my chastity and any exposed clitty skin.

You can see that the lace layers are narrow and well spaced apart.  The knickers hug the bum quite nicely.

Something to note – when you go looking for these types of knickers just check that they are maids knickers and not Adult baby knickers otherwise you will end up with a rather baggy bum as the AB versions are designed to take a nappy – not our type of thing, we like things to be snug and well fitting!
Lastly we have a Sheer Organza pair of panties but with the addition of a lace edged cock and bum hole.  Again you can get these in satin or nylon.  there are plenty of Ebay sellers that make sissy items that will add then the openings to the panties.

One of the things to point out to who ever makes them is to make sure the hole is sized to allow your balls and chastity to get through. one pair that we had in the past was only sized to allow my clit to poke through.

The rear hole should line up with your sissy hole, so you might have to send over some measurements to the seamstress and also you may need to tell her what you will need the hole for, Adding or removing a butt plug or if your Mistress or Master plans on using you through the hole, if it is the latter then don’t be too small with your opening size.

This pair is to allow Madam or Sir to remove or add one of the buttplugs.  These tend to be worn with the short maids uniform, again it is because it has me fully exposed and on display.
 I’ve inserted a bit of white paper to highlight the lace around the openings.
There you go, a bit of a rummage through my knicker drawer.  Hopefully that was useful and hopefully the rationale behind each type might be a help to someone.
Regards
billie xxx

  

The Last Christmas Present arrives

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Due to issues with the postal system in the UK, strikes and such like, some of our Christmas Presents were delayed in arriving.

Madam informed me on Christmas day that a couple of my presents hadn’t arrived and hopefully they would arrive by the new year.  The first one that arrived just after the new year was my new cage – the Nano, and once it arrived it was duly fitted. pushing me down from the previous Small Cage to the Nano, its a lot shorter but still very comfortable for everyday wear.

The other present only arrived on Saturday and when it arrived Madam immediately took it to her study and I was given orders to go be busy else where! The weather was somewhat crap so I decided to go and be busy in the kitchen.

After lunch I was told to follow Madam and Sir to her study.  Slightly nervous I entered and curtsied and was presented with a Christmas paper wrapped box and told that this was my missing present from Madam.  I was told that I could open it now.

With a bit of trepidation I unpeeled the wrapping and wow! Madam had got me a pair of 4″ stiletto heeled ankle boots.  Madam told me to try them on to make sure that they actually fitted, which thankfully they did. With a small bit of adjusting of the laces they were perfect.

Madam had gone up a size from my normal shoe size, as that was the recommendation for male wearers and also if they were to be worn for long periods.

So what do you think?

They fit a treat and are very comfortable, they aren’t too big.  They fit really well at the top above my ankle.  The buckles and straps are for show (Madam had hopped that they would have gone round the side Zips so that she could add padlocks at the buckles to lock them on my feet).

So far they have been very comfortable, and I wore them all afternoon and evening yesterday and most of today. they look like the ideal addition to my Short Maids Uniform.
Madam certainly likes then as she insisted that I kept them on last night when I was serving her. 
billie xxx

Whats in a Name – Madam Alice

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 From Madam Alice.

Poppet asked an interesting question about whether John is viewed as my partner/ Boyfriend by those that I work with.  The simple answer is Yes, they do.  There are very few people around where we live and work that don’t believe that John and I are a couple in a long term relationship.

This is flipped when we go back upto Leicester to see the family, where myself and Mick are very much the married couple.

To explain this I was going to repost some posts from the old blog but I thought that I could perhaps add some detail that would explain a lot better how this all came about.

We started the FLR when we lived in Leicester in 1998/99 and it really started in earnest in 2000 when I reached out to Carol, with the Guidance and development from Carol I learned to develop and become more confident with myself and to take ownership of our marriage.  This was not a one sided matter, Mick was very much part of the conversation and also very involved in making the decisions – this was not me telling and him doing, it was lots of talking, understanding each other and agreeing what we needed to do and what we wanted to do.

Mick was on the mend from his breakdown and he was the one that recognised that our sexual side of our relationship need to change.  He was really concerned that I was getting sexually frustrated.  At the same time I was learning from Carole that I had a Bi side to myself and also about the cuckolding side of Carole’s relationship with her husband kevin/ kerri.

Mick had already suggested that he would be OK with me having an affair or one night stands of it would meet with my sexual needs.  I want to point out that Mick was not pushed or forced into that, he came to me and we talked it through, he was worried that I might go looking for a relationship else where and this was his way to offering to keep the relationship together.  

Well he got probably the second biggest bollocking of his life (the first was when he was well enough after his breakdown to know that I was angry at him for doing what he did), he was bollocked because if there something in this life that is certain and that is that I love Mick and I had never even considered or thought of leaving him! I get so much from my husband that the physical aspect is way down the list of why I love him and why he is my partner and soul mate. (sorry if that was a bit too sickly and lovey dovey but it is a fact).  Mick was,and still is, a very good and considerate lover, it was just a fact that his breakdown had impacted on him physically as well as mentally and it was going to take quite a bit of time before he was starting to improve physically and sexually.

By creating our FLR and allowing me to become the Alpha and Mick to be the beta we stabilised the marriage and it gave a good base for Mick to recover.

We found that by creating different characters for ourselves we could have a the FLR as our normal routine but also have a vanilla face for the outside world.  So we created billie and Madam and kept Alice and Mick for dealing with Friends and Family.

The chance of getting a promotion at work and the need to move to another branch of the Parent Company threw up a number of possibilities for us.  We could normalise the new relationship, really make it the daily routine.  

It was Mick that made the suggestion that got both of us thinking.  We were moving to a whole new area, this branch of the company were not directly linked to the Leicester company, so there was an opportunity that I could go and have the occasional night out and perhaps have an occasional fling.  

Mick was already negotiating on the house, which while it was a renovation nightmare, it offered a rural location with very few neighbours, the ability for Mick to work from home with his Consultancy business and it was close to work but not too close.  Micks suggestion was that when I start at the new job just drop the Mrs Luff and use Ms Luff, “don’t tell just let them assume that you are single/ divorced or what every they liked”.  As it turned out we didn’t need to do any of that, the Leicester HR department did it all for me.

I left school and started with the company in Leicester in the admin office, so I was registered with the company with my maiden name.  I worked at various roles in the company until I was allocated to one of the Senior Engineers as his department’s admin support, he spotted that I was quite useful with the design and project teams and suggested that I get some training to become part of the Project Teams rather than the admin assistant.  At this time I met Mick and 2 years later we are married.

I didn’t realise that no one in the HR department had updated my details to have my married name. For all of my time in the Leicester company, my department used my married name but the system still had my original surname.  

My boss encouraged me to apply for a promotion and move into one of the Project teams at Milton Keynes, that branch was expanding and they wanted Junior Project Managers so I applied.  The company had a policy that all applications and CVs would have personal details removed and a simple candidate number was added.

The result was that at no point in my application or at the interview was my surname used.  Luckily I got the job and my personal file was moved from the Leicester office to the Parent Company Office in London and then out to the Milton Keynes office still showing that I was a Miss and with my Maiden name.

The details of all of this came to light for us when the company sent out a welcome pack, I showed it to Mick and he just told me to go with it, arrive and be the new Madam Alice using her old maiden name.

Fast forwarding to when I met John, it had been through a dating site that dealt with Married Women to find men for “fun”. we met and I explained from the very start that I was seeing John with the full knowledge and consent of my husband.  John was curious but not shocked, he’d previously had a short relationship with a couple where the Husband liked to watch his wife fuck her boyfriend.  I explained that we were not quite like that and that we were in a Female Led Relationship.  John acknowledged this and our first date together had a very interesting conversation where John asked lots of questions, not in a bad way, but in a very deliberate gathering knowledge type of way. He also liked the fact that I was using my maiden name.

On our second date I found that John had done quite a bit of research and he was well prepared with questions that added depth and detail to what he had learned.  He also told me that If this was going to become longer term thing then he would like to be more public with me.  He made it very clear he was not looking for Marriage  or to break up a marriage.  At this point I was starting to think that we had potential here with John.

Over the next few weeks and months, the relationship was working very well and John made it clear that he would like to meet and talk with Mick, just to make sure that all of this was true.  We  all meet up and the conversation was very good, open and honest from all three of us.

John followed this up with a couple of meetings with Mick on his own, again this showed us that we had a individual that was open to, but also understating, of the way we lived and wanted to develop.

billie’s post from November 2018 covers it rather well from his perspective while focusing on the rules for John and billie’s relationship, The link is below and it is worth going back and having a read of it

https://madamssubhub.com/2018/11/

I’ve also extracted the important parts:

John would become Alice’s boyfriend, John had no problem with Alice and Mick’s relationship (he had one stipulation and I’ll cover that shortly) but billie would have several conditions applied to him and they would require to be implemented prior to John coming to our house. 

John asked Mick to purchase a small jewellery box to be given to Alice as a gift and in it he would like me to place my wedding ring and to give it to Alice, Alice could then place her engagement and wedding rings in the box together.  John’s thinking was that Alice and he would be boyfriend/ girlfriend but Alice and Mick would still be very much married and having the rings all together would be a symbol of that union.  A nice touch and I did get it, even though it would appear she was single by not wearing rings I got the symbolism of the rings being together.  

Master would now be Madam’s Boyfriend and as such he would be socialising with her in the local area.  billie was to stop socialising with Madam in any local restaurants and bars.  Master wanted the ability to take his girlfriend for meals  and nights out without any embarrassment to him or to Madam.  If billie wished to take Madam out for an evening then it would have to be done further a field (London). 

billie will be required to drive Madam and Master out on their local dates and collect them at the end of the evening. 

with everyone in agreement and aware of each others wants, needs and limits we started our 3 sided relationship, with the public face being that John and I are a couple.

Some people at work keep expecting that there will be a wedding between us, but we keep pointing out that John has been married before and that was not a good part of his life so he doesn’t want to get married again (which is totally true), but it provides a good way to shut down any marriage suggestions.

The only time that I’ve had questions asked about who Mick is was by a couple of people at work in the early period when I started working there, and we had come up with the explanation that when I bought the property there was a Office and a Storage area on the site that the previous owner rented it out and I’ve continued to do that to Mick to run his business from them, “The rent has helped to pay for the renovation of the house overs the years”.  It seemed to have worked as a reason.

That has been quite a long post just to say that to the majority of people that we know locally see John and I as a couple.  Hopefully it adds some context.

Madam’s Domestics

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 For those that follow this blog you are already aware that although I have a good career my main job is actually being my wife’s house husband (or perhaps that should be House Wife).

While that isn’t strictly true (as yet), I am her submissive house husband and I fill a lot of that role as her maid and domestic.  This normally in the morning and the evenings, while the afternoons are allocated for me to carry out my business work.

Madam likes that I wear female clothes when working around the house, this helps to keep me in the correct frame of mind as her submissive and it also plays into my need to be humiliated.  In all it helps to maintain the pecking order in our FLR marriage.

When we started out we purchased a cheap and cheerful French Maids uniform, one of the fancy dress types, this was for when Madam wanted me to serve her in the evenings and when she wanted a bit of fun with me.  For doing the actual maid work around the house it was kept simple with a simple blue skirt, a white shirt/ blouse and used the apron from the maids uniform.

Over time we both found that the French Maids uniform wasn’t upto the job at hand, but it had served a purpose and that was that we both liked me being dressed as a Maid and serving Madam.  The result was about 2005 we purchased a better quality Maids uniform, this was a off the shelf item purchased from the Honour in London.  This was a very good quality outfit and served it’s purposed really well, truth be told it was probably the real start of the way that we now do things.

Mistress Carole had also advised on what to get and the uniform that we purchased pretty much matched one that Kerri normally wore at the time.  We used the advice from Mistress Carole, and I had spoken to Kerri about what I would need and we made sure that we had proper underskirts, knickers of different types, a collar/ choker and with this dress there was also a small maids cap.  Our shopping trip resulted in us spending a weekend at Mistress Carole’s home and Kerri helped to make sure I knew how to wear it and more importantly when to wear it.

My working uniform remained as a plain skirt and plain blouses, normally picked up from one of the charity shops in Bedford or Milton Keynes.

Over the next few years we picked up another couple of Maids uniforms but while they were OK they just didn’t last the course.

Around about 2012, I had taken Madam away for a long weekend for her Birthday and the hotel house keeping staff all had a black and white style of uniform.  This sparked interest with Madam and after she spoke with the Hotel Manager she was informed that uniforms were part of the workwear range of a company called Alexandra.  By the end of the weekend a housekeeping uniform had been ordered in my size and Madam wanted me to wear that for my domestic duties rather than the skirt and blouse.  When it arrived Madam was very please with it and it was what it was meant to be – functional work wear for carrying out the domestic duties – hovering, laundry, changing the beds etc.  Madam had me add some white lace to the pockets and the cuffs and wear it with the old maids apron that we still had. That uniform worked really well upto late spring last year when we had to replace it with a new uniform of a similar style.

In 2012/13 Madam decided that she would like to get a made to measure satin maids uniform for me as a birthday gift.  She found a woman on Ebay that specialised in making sissy clothing and after several emails and lots of measurements the dress with matching knickers and underskirt arrived.  This would be my French Maids/ Cuckold Maid uniform, as Madam was on the look out for a new boyfriend, but this time one that would embrace our FLR and also not exclude me from their cuckolding activities.  It was Madam’s plan that once she found the right person that she was going to have me introduced to them in my French Maids uniform and she wanted something that was completely appropriate.  And so when John came into our Marriage as Madam’s new Boyfriend, when he first came to our house to spend the night with Madam, I was presented to him in my Sissy French Maids uniform.  From that point on He became Sir and I became a proper cuckold.

Several years into Sir’s relationship with us, he discussed with Madam about the potential for getting me another maids uniform, Madam still had the details of the Seamstress that she had used for my French Maids uniform and as I was still the same size she passed the details onto Sir.  

Madam and I were perhaps expecting a uniform in a different colour such as Pink or Red.  We were not expecting what arrived.  This was distinctly shorter in length and Sir had designed it so that I would have no where to hide.  Stocking tops and suspender straps would be fully on view as would my chastity.  As Sir put it this was now my Cuckold Maid Uniform and the one that I would wear for his weekend visits. 

Formalising the Dress Routine and Creating the Maid Personas

In late 2020 Madam came up with an idea/ plan and decided to discuss it with me.  Just as she had done with creating Miss Watson, my admin assistant persona, for when I was working in the office, she wanted to create her domestic staff and formalise when and where each of the maids would exist and carry out what duties and roles.  It was slightly more involved than just that, Madam wanted me to have a set structure and formalised “uniforms” and “outfits” for each of what were now becoming the different personas of billie.  

No longer would I look at what the main task or work of the day would be and then pick the outfit that would do for the day, I would now be required to dress for each of the activitys.  

To explain, a typical week day:

0600-0830hrs Breakfast and assisting Madam dress for work – French Maid Uniform

0900-1200hrs Domestic house work – Domestic Uniform

1300-1630hrs Office work – Sissy Secretary

1700- until Dismissed, Prepare Madam’s bath, cook evening meal, serve Madam as required – French Maid Uniform.

Thursday Evening at 2000hrs – Weekly Performance review – Sissy School Girl Uniform

Friday Evening from 1700hrs onward – Weekend service to Madam and Sir – Cuckold Maid Uniform

Uniform Details:

Domestic uniform –  Underwear to be white longline bra, white Open Bottom Girdle, white or black Marks and Spencer full cut briefs/panties.  Black Plain top stockings of a higher denier.  (Tights can be worn). 3-4″ heels will be worn.  Plain leather collar to be worn.

French maid Uniform – Full or Retro style Bra and Waist Cincher/ merry widow/ basque to be worn with plain top stockings of 20 denier or less.  Maid style of panties will be worn, Chastity locked clit should also be in a chastity bag. Stockings can be seamed.  Heels will be 4″ or higher stilettos.  A leather collar or sissy maid choker is to be worn.  Lace fingerless Gloves will also be worn unless told otherwise.

Cuckold Maid Uniform – Retro Style Bra with weighted breast inserts* and Waist Cincher/ Basque/ Corset to be worn with lace top/ RHT/ FF stockings of 20 denier or less. Open crotch maid panties are to be worn with chastity exposed and butt plug fitted. Underskirt to be at a suitable height to ensure that chastity and panties are fully exposed. Sissy Maid Choker is to be worn.  Stiletto heels of 5″ or higher to be worn.  Lace/ Satin wristlet gloves are to be worn.

Sissy School Girl Uniform – White Plain Shirt, White full cup Support Bra (M&S), 6 strap plain white Suspender belt, School Tie tied with a full Windsor knot, white or blue knickers of a full cut style or short bloomers.  Stockings are to white or Grey Opaques 60 denier or higher. Grey Pleated knee length Skirt.  No belt, collar or gloves are to be worn.  Stiletto heels of 4″ or higher are to be worn.

*The weighted breast inserts are nylon knee highs with 500g of dry Risoto rice in each.  these act as cheap breast forms but add shape to my uniforms and also to change my centre of balance when walking in heels. 

In the run up to December 2020 Madam had been watching some repeats of a programme called Heartbeat, based in North Yorkshire in the 1950s and 1960s and one of the characters that struct a chord with her was the Housekeeper to the Lord of the Manor.  She floated the idea that perhaps it would be appropriate that she should have a housekeeper.  

Now before you go “Ooh, there she goes thinking she is the Lady of the Manor!wanting a housekeeper! Ooh laa de da!”.  There is good solid rational behind this:

  • this would add another Persona to my billie Watson identity (and with it rules, guidance, Structure and restrictions)
  • As I am well into my 50s, a housekeeper image would be age appropriate.
  • It would allow Madam to perhaps “test run” an identity that might work for when I retire.
  • Our house was originally built for an Estate manager on one of the local Estate during the Victorian/Edwardian period, so it may have been possible that there was a house keeper or maid at the property. 
Madam was keen not have a frumpy tweed clad battle axe of a house keeper and had spotted an image (below) that she thought might work, she also asked the readers of our old blog for opinions The link to where it is now on this blog is below:

With some feedback and some discussion Mrs Watson was created.  Madam wanted a persona of Mature Femininity, slightly formal – not too stiff. No Tweed! To be the head of Domestic duties and staff, a old spinster with strong lesbian tendencies towards her employer.  
One of the first conditions that were set for Mrs Watson was that I would not use the title of Mistress or Madam when in this persona but would refer to Alice as “Ms” with her Maiden name.
My underwear should be shapewear, retro sexy not frumpy, no panty girdles, but Corselettes, Open bottom Girdles, Merry Widow Basque, Retro Bras etc, all with black stockings and heels and I always make sure that I am plugged and accessible should Ms “X”, wish to have a “tryst” in the privacy of her study with her head of household staff. I must wear a collar or a choker as a reminder that I am “Staff”.
Madam told me to develop and create the uniform for this persona and with these 2 outfits I think I have perhaps got it, Madam seems to like, which is a good thing!

Mrs Watson tends to work on Tuesdays and Thursdays, unless Madam/ “Ms X” requires her to be available on other days.
You have now had an insight to the whole domestic staff that are are “employed” by Madam to run her House and the FLR.  I hope that you found it interesting and are it also gave us an opportunity to get some more photos done over the last week or so.
Let us know what you think?
billie xxx (& Mrs Watson)